Last night, in the middle of the night, I woke up thirsty still dreaming and reached out with a trembling arm to the glass on my nightstand and when I picked it up my arm collapsed almost immediately. There was water everywhere, that whole part of the bed soaked. I'd been sleeping on my arm, it wasn't right, and I said fuck it, went back to bed thinking this is what it will be like to be old and weak maybe.